Is been awhile since I've blog, seems like there's a lot of messy things happened, so blogging is one way for me to express how i felt. So let's continue with it.
Let's start with the recent problem i have encounter which is my new job. I really don't know whether i have choose the right path for myself, in my mouth i keep on saying "i just wanna learn new stuff, didn't care about the salary", "nevermind la, try first ma, not suits then go back Malaysia lo" but really deep down my heart really don't wanted to leave Malaysia. Some people tell me in Malaysia still the same, can learn the same thing, but some tell me Singapore better, Malaysia sucks la, blah blah blah. The important is I have start putting my leg into the pool, I'll just try my best see how far I can go. For me, my aim is work for maximum two years here and I will move back to Malaysia.
And there is another major problem which making me headache which is the place to stay. I have no idea why my company will be at Joo Koo and all of the friend of mine look for job far away from me, making me can't stay with them in the same place unless I get a car soon. When I reach my relative house, and moved my luggage into the house and to the room, I came out and sat in the living room. Just starting to talk, she already ask me when I gonna find a room, this basically tells me I'm not gonna stay long here. She telling me that the room is study room and my cousin need to use the room. All this I know since the first day i came to her house, but do you really need to talk like that? Putting pressure on me, stressing me out. My working location is so far away, is really hard to find someone to share room with me. Moreover, single room is really expensive for me due to my low pay salary.
I told my mum about this situation, she seem to over worry about me, and she keep calling her friend for help, giving me headache also. If I really can't handle it, I will automatically find you for help, don't worry about me. So now I need to discuss with my friend due to some of the room needed to have contract for 1 years, I do like to avoid contract because mostly I will be moving ouat if I get my car for the job.
I have never like Singapore environment, everybody is in tension mode, walking fast, stressful lifestyle. And more important is, there is not much friend in here. But there is one thing i wanna learn from here is their stressful lifestyle, I have always been in comfort mode, lazy, not much of initiative, always follow only. This job scope can let me learn how to lead people, choosing important decision and those stressful lifestyle, only all of this will let me improve myself to be a better man. Only with all this, I won't be look down by anyone. Other than that, I also wanted to dazzle my cousins and their boss, Dato Tan, also my future boss, so that after I back to Malaysia I will be a great helper of him, work with him is better than working with anyone else. All this is my motivation to move forward. From now on, I must spend wisely, save as much money as I can add-on with all the skill i can learn so that when i go back, I will be an advantage for everything.
Always know whats your aim, do not lost track of it. This is how you become successful.
That's all for today.
MQ. Siow